All or Nothing

One belief that I live my life by is to try everything, say anything, and regret nothing.  Whether it is with family, friends, or relationships I believe you should never hold back your feelings.  You should always say what you are thinking, but never intentionally hurt someone.  If you love someone I believe you should tell them, there should be no words left unsaid.  One of my biggest fears is to look back and think I should have told someone I loved them before I lost the chance so I make it a point to always express how I am feeling and it has never lead me astray.  Something I have been told is that I love to much or to hard, but I have never regretted that.  Through failed relationships or fading friendships I have never once regretted giving 200% all the time.

When I have a dream I have the same mentality.  I jump in head first and have faith that it will all work out.  I’ve always loved traveling and learning about new places.  I want to see new things and meet new people.  I recently decided that since my classes are online next semester that I would be spending January-July in Seattle.  It’s one of those go all in things that I do.  I believe that when you have a dream you should do everything in your power to achieve it and that is just what I plan to do, see the world.  I have plenty of other dreams but that is just one example.

The reason I felt like this was an important post for my Independent Learning Project is because I haven’t always been this way.  Different things in my life shaped this belief little by little and now I could not imagine living my life any other way.  The life event that made me want to go all in with every dream was when I was told I had a form of skin cancer.  Now it wasn’t anything to serious, a quick surgery cured me, but it got me thinking.  You never know what could happen to you and I want to experience everything before I can’t anymore.  There have been a few situations that shaped my belief in saying what you feel all the time, but the most recent is when a family member tried committing suicide.  That is where that initial fear of losing the chance to tell someone how you feel came from.  I don’t want to live my life thinking that if I could have said something it could have changed the outcome of the future for myself and others.  My Independent Learning Project is me finding my road to happiness and I really believe this life change has played a huge role in it.